Thursday, January 12
A Year older, A Page Thicker, A Life Fuller?
Would I then be a little bit wiser this year? I reminisced and thought that I am getting old, my friends are getting old. They are getting married, having children (soon be rearing them), and I am left standing where I was 3 years ago. I too would want to settle down someday, live a comfortable life. It is my strength and downfall that I am easily satisfied with life. Oh well, I guess, i just have to psyche myself and finally find my direction. There are few things that I strongly believe in, like: One is never too old to learn new things; One could make the same mistakes over again, but it's never too late to redeem yourself. I am a late bloomer, "loser" you may call me based on my achievements so far. Ok, I promised myself that I'm going to thrive to be more positive this year. I guess I am just scared to over estimate my skills and intellect, to have high hopes and then only to fall hard in the end. Being Chinese, my parents reared me with humility in mind. So I grew up thinking, I am not pretty enough, smart enough, or good enough for anything. I guess it's all just a state of mind. We hold our life in our hands. We could blame no one but ourselves for INACTION. I am too chicken to apply for a job because I'm afraid I am not qualified. I must learn to accept that in this life, i will be, might be disappointed once in a life. I usually get things I want easily, but USUALLY doesn't spell N-E-V-E-R.
craving chocolate @ 4:02 PM
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