Tuesday, January 3
An Affair With My Blog
I am heartbroken. It's the start of a new year and I'm not having a fine start. I rented PC just to see him because he's not allowed to go to my house. So i checked my blogs. Is it bad that i wanted to keep the existence of my blogs from my boyfriend? i would have chosen death, if i'd been at gunpoint. I would not let him know about my blog site. I feel guilty. It's like having a secret affair with my blogsite. I enjoy the fact that i could write about anything here, have other people read it, and still keep anonymous. I know open communication and trust is vital in a relationship, but... but... oh, well... The blog isn't really the reason for my broken heart. it's because he doesn't trust me. I may have done bad things before, but he did too. he would often tell me, "i love you more". he said he loves me more because no man would have loved me as much as he does. that he stood by me inspite of the things I have done, but what about the things HE did to me? what about my sacrifices? He insisted that we meet today but as soon as he came over, saw me surfing the net, he took the mouse from me and started checking the history of my visited sites. he didnt even ask how i was doing, if i waited long for him, he didnt even kiss me!
craving chocolate @ 3:01 PM
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