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Friday, December 10 Contemplating: 3rd year anniversary, love, sex, career and blogskins Contentment -- hard to achieve. Just wondering, are we ever content? A month ago, I was bored out of my wits so I came up with an idea to start blogging again. What I am currently using now is the second skin I was able to borrow from some nice bloggerskin-maker out there. As I was staring at my blog, I thought, "ei, this isn't me!" GUITAR GIRL? I mean, hello? I can't even sing! I can't even distinguish the note do from re. My sweetheart is on the verge of giving up teaching me play guitar. If only he didn't like my singing voice, he probably would have stopped training me to sing ages ago. I read my previous posts and I knew my page lacks personality. I know the things I posts aren't really as interesting as others, but well, this is me, this is me I'm writing, my life. However uninteresting it may be, this is my life, I ought to take charge of it and not just let the current take me to where it wants to. Ok, I am ranting. I don't often rant or even bitch! (errr...but I can bitch...in a good sense of bitching, if get my drift *wink*) I'm drifting from my topic: Contentment. Well, all I am trying to say is I wanna change my skin again. But after all the hardwork I put through this... I'm having second thoughts. At the back of my mind, though, I know this page is lame. after all, I only made a blog so I would refrain from being too idle since I am jobless at the moment. Having a mom who tells you what to do and is never content with your success is one hell of a situation to be in. I am currently considering a job in a bank or a call center. I know someone who isn't even a graduate who actually earns more than me in a call center, yes, it kinda suck. But my previous job offers me more challenge and more people to meet, but that was previous. I quit remember? That's why I am depress, i.e., currently gaining weight. On the other hand, there's nothing else that I want changed (except for taking an active part living MY life). 8th of December is our anniversary. In spite of all the ups and downs we've gone through(see: http://och8.blogspot.com/) , we made it to the third year! I am happy. We are happy. Content? Well, somehow. We have made so many hard and sweet love all through these years. *wink* (pun intended) and I am happy, I am joyful. No, I am not one lucky girl. I am Blessed. 
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